30-12-09

Am having K session now. Only slept like few hours yet again... Went to buy the bbq stuff for tmr. 1 more day to the end of 2009. Whoohoo!!!

Lots of things to prepare. So i'm gonna enjoy now, then go...... SLEEP! Hahaha!

Bye bye!!

29-12-09

2 more days to end of 2009. The cliques has decided to hold a bbq session. Venue, my house. Make sure you all help to clear and not throw the fucking clearing part all to me. Thanks!

Have been pokering very much lately, and am still going strong. Went to sign up on real credits pokering to try it out. Hopefully i have some luck in there. And it will be super damn stressed.

Spent another bomb today. Fuck to my car tires! The previous week was rear left tire that went flat, today was the rear right tire that went flat! WTF!!! And the repair man for the TV antenna came as well, and i got to fork out another 160bucks for the repair fee. -_-|||...

Amm rotting at home, can someone help me? Alright, hopefully the money does roll in soon. Hope fully its big money, not penny. Hahah! And my wish for my 'fairlady' will be here. *pray*

What can i say? Wait till pass 2009 then everything will be known!

Nights!

28-12-09

Coming to an end to 2009 in a few days time. Lots has happened, ups and downs. Lots of thinking needs to be done, and of course there is something very serious in my thought that i need to consider and of course plan it well too for success.

Don't know what i have been doing for the whole of today, but i hope its not totally a waste of today for me...

Don't know what to post. But i just know my mood is quite good since last night.(:

Nights freaks!(:

27-12-09

Another stay home day for me. Hasn't really step out of the house since ytd afternoon after repairing my car. Was suppose to go SC, but decided that i am too lazy to do so, plus the poker temptation for me is back again. Thus Played on for the whole of last night and now!!! Hahahah!!(:

Losing and winning is so boring! How long do i need to wait to hit back my 20millions??? Argh!!!

Have lots of ideas running right now, need to put it into good use. But it will take alot of risk to execute it plus maintaining it. Need more help!!!

Alright, gonna continue on with my pokering. Bye!!!

26-12-09

Just got back from watching Alvin and the Chipmunks... Cute show, but story wise, i still find the 1st one better..

Its been so long since i last speed and drive fast, that's why it made me tense and nervous earlier on...

Gonna get some sleep now. I know SN, you will ask me to not sleep so late again. I will take note of that!(: Need time to adjust back! Hahah!

Tata!

25-12-09

Its a rainy rainy Christmas!! How come its not a snowy one?? Hahahah! I woke up early today because i slept early last night. Then i thgt TR would wake up in time for her dental appt, but who knows, by the time i decided to call her, she is still sleeping, which means she probably will be late. But thinking being late is better then nvr, i still sent her there anyway. But who knows, they said that 10mins late, will considered the appt to be cancelled. And they don't even call nor will did they inform before about anything like that. We ended up going for lunch which kept us waiting for like 30 over mins. But luckily its worth the wait to me. Hahah!

Came home continue sleeping throughout, with the cool cool rain falling on my house roof. Shall go back to lie after this post now. Wahahahaha!(:

Still no activity for the day up till now.

Bye!!!



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24-12-09

How could i ever miss posting on this day... It is the eve of the Christmas! "Ping An Ye"! But sadly, i doesn't seem really peaceful to me! God damn motherfuckers!

Was intending to have a house party very last minute for today, but due to unforeseen circumstances, it was cancelled! And fuck yea, i am at home all these while. Watched 5 movies all alone in my room with no other aliens coming to disturb me. Movie after movie is my life... Probably go get more tmr.

And yes, i have gotten the date to my interview, and will be definitely going for it. If everything goes smoothly, i think i will probably fly in a couple of months time. Pray! Hope i pass through the interview.

Nothing much to post about this boring Christmas. The rest of the clique is probably at some cafe where i don't wish like going down. Sometimes, quiet life can be the nosiest time of your life, it could curve the best memories for you..(:

Signing off!!!

21-12-09

Wasn't working today, its the 1st time my fucked up car broke down...

Went out to meet TR and JC late last night, while i'm on my way, i suddenly drove through a sudden thick mist that is just like a wall. The moment i passed through it, i felt a sudden cold shudder through my body, and i was totally awaken by it. It made me kind of shiver and the chilking sensation just freaked me out. I don't don't whether i should thank that for happening or what. It prevented me from driving fast as JC was rushing me, but i din dare to drive fast due to what happened. When i almost reached TR house, i realise one of my tire was totally flat, luckily i wasn't at high speed. Eventually i got no choice but to parked it at TR place.

Need to spend money again in the end to replace the tire. And for no fucking reason, my car battery connection is like giving me problem. Needa get it checked again. FUCK!!

Was out whole day with TR today, brought her to dental and pay up her hp bill. Thereafter, we went CS to meet up with Ivy for their shopping while i went to look at my stuff.. Dinner was satisfying as it was my craving since last week. Hahah!

Came home late for the 'tang yuan' making session. Happy 'tang yuan' day everyone!!(:

Nights!!!

20-12-09

Went to Changi Airport ytd for some reason. Its raining damn heavily, but lucky its not like what the weather forecast has predicted, no storm... Hahah! Jammed back from Singapore to JB, takes me about slightly more than a hour to clear the jam.

Came home rest and after that went to Jason house for his house opening. His sister is like calling me cat eye cause of my car...-_-|||... And she greeted me as though we have known each other for very long, very friendly, but i feel weird. But its ok, at least throughout the night we got to know each other. Was at his house gambling till about 3plus in the morning and lost about RM50 and SGD$5.. The SGD is to Kyle!!! _|_ him! Hahahah!

Went to meet PMT for beef noodle right after leaving Jason house. Its really nice, but too bad it don't add salted vege in it, if not it would be even nicer! Hahah! Came home this morning about almost 8am, and slept at about 9plus. Now here i am posting this damn thing and updating it.. Hahah! think i'm gonna sleep throughout the afternoon later on liao!

Thats about it. Post again soon ya! Hahah! Bye folks!

19-12-09

Speechless! Totally speechless for what has happened today! Got no idea what to post today, but i just know i need a job change, and will be going for other interviews tomorrow.

Anyway, HAPPY SWEET 18TH TO MISS STEPHANIE SEAH!!! Another Stephanie i recently met! Wahahah!(:

Goodnights peeps!

16-12-09

Work has started for the past 1 week, but i feel very very stressed up, and i really feel i can't make it.. Don't know why, but the bosses here really treats me well.

Today is my cousin birthday, happy birthday to you!(: Though we always bully you, we still love you as our cousin, and hope you grow up soon! Not anymore in your size please! Wahahah!:P

Woke up with a very stiff neck again this morning, and it had been bothering me the whole day in office till now. Could not turn my head to the right... Must be due to the stress again.

Tmr will be the 1st time i am meeting security suppliers, but its like damn super far, travelling from aljunied to woodlands... Shag!! But good thing is i can go home straight.. Hahah!

Shall not talk more since i got to sleep! Nights!

14-12-09

Don't know what i should say about this job... Felt rather stressed out, hasn't been learning much, and i feel i am not really that suitable in such environment. The working environment is just way too quiet, and i really feel like falling into a state of unstable mental health soon. I really can't make myself work in such environment. But my manager has been encouraging me that made me feel i should stay and try my best... Let's hope that at least i won't disappoint him...

Gonna force myself to stop facebooking soon. I think i am too addicted to it by now already, since work has started back for me, i will only FB when i am home, other than that, no no no!!

I know you're scolded by your boss today, but everyone will get it as long as they work long enough in a company, but i know your boss scolded you for a damn fucking ridiculous stuff... No worries, just don't affect your mood can le..(:

Great, so friday i will be having driver again... Wahaha!!

Should i zouk or supper this weekend? Tell me soon so i can arrange ya!! Muahahahah!(:

goodnights dudes!!!

13-12-09

Finally, i'm back at home. Wasn't home for the past 3 days, packed myself full of activities...

Went to Estee's 21st Bday at Somerset Orchard Service Apartment, the place seems not bad, just that on a Fri nights, its a total headache to get through that place. After that headed on to downtown east to stay over with my darling, then she got to send me to work the next morning cuz my work place very difficult to get parking space and its very expensive too...

Came back to downtown after work to rest till evening then started the BBQ-ing, was being the BBQ man for most part of it, until its about time for me to leave for supperclub. Intended to get drunk, thus, i was being drove there again. The event was successful with many people attending, and its been so long since i enjoyed myself at clubs as i always got to control my drinking no matter what. But last night, i know i don't have to, so i just kept drinking.. Though i get the chance to go into the VIP room in supperclub, its kind of boring inside as it is only for all the ambassadors, so there isn't much people, but still i went over to mingle around for awhile. There is also juggling performance by the bartenders and i was almost gone by 1:30.. Sms my driver to come pick me up, and she sure is quite efficient as she reach quite on time. Hahah! I only know i talked nonsense throughout the whole journey, but i am still awake and can show her the way back to downtown. Now i know being ferried around is a damn good thing...

Also had a really really unexpected thing that happened on me too. And i think its really fated! Haiz!!! Don't wish to reveal it here. Anyone who wish to find out, just ask me personally, i will tell you all if i think i wanna let you know.. Hahah!

Checked out from downtown and headed back to JB tgth, then went for 'Bak Kut Teh' and its my turn to send darling back instead... I went home took a nap, then went to pick her up again for dinner le now i am back infront of my lappy. Gonna sleep after this post again le.

Gonna get back to work again tmr! Nights ppl! Will try not to doze off at work tmr then... Hahah!(:

10-12-09

Finally, i have officially started work, 1st 2 days is too much slacking... So much so that i could even fall asleep on my table.. Wahahah!:P Still can FB, call alot of people to chat blah blah blah!! Hahah! Though its sound slacking, but the worst part is that everyone in the office don't seems to interact during working time, only while lunch time and after work then they will mingle with each other... Thats the super boring part in it... Lucky my editor was good, and we kind of able to hit off well. Good good!!(:

Feeling quite like hearted alr now.. I don't know why you told me about all those thing, i really don't feel a single bit of anger, but i am disappointed though that i know there are still many things that you kept from me. And i have known most of it by now... Seriously, there is nothing that can be hidden for long, especially like i told you before, from me... But anyway, its no longer that important anymore since everything is the past. I still do treat you as a friend, its only a matter of whether you still wanna keep in touch as a friend. If you choose not to, then i will wish you all the best from here on..(:

My new chapter starts here once again. Everything is different again now. No more 20km travelling from checkpoint. Hahah! Its much nearer now. Initially, i've learn up the song "I'm Yours" intending to sing to her, but now, i guess i should sing it to you is it? Wahahah!(: But its still not totally mastered yet ah, wait till i can sing it smoothly 1st then i will do it. Hehex!!!

"whosgoing.sg" is holding a party at supperclub this Saturday. And i am selected as one of the ambassador to be. Meaning i am running as a candidate to be. Final result will be only let known after the Saturday event... I'm inviting everyone who wish to join in the fun and support me please drop me your name maybe on my mobile if you have or tag yourself in my tagbox... Thanks!

SY: I would like to invite you to join us, at least for the last time if you don't mind.. Bring Jun along, maybe the rest as well. Lets all party for the last time together at least... But if you really don't want then thats alright too.

But people, come join me, it would be cool, i am trying to get myself drunk on that night... Watch me ya!! Wahahah!(:

Okay! Thats about it for this particular post... Yeah!!(: Tata!!

08-12-09

We've talked, i've heard whatever she want to say. But, let me tell you this, things within me will still be the same. Your decision is the one that will make the difference now.

Alright, i maybe flirting myself with death. Or should i not say flirting, instead, running faster towards the 'gate of hades'. I don't know how much longer do i have, but i maybe just trying to make the possibility of it happening faster.

I broke my own record again this morning while i was coming back JB from Pasir Ris.

1) Pasir Ris - Woodlands Checkpt Passport counter (11mins+), previously was outside of the checkpt (14mins+)

2) JB checkpt to my estate guard house (8mins+), previously (9mins+)

3) Pasir Ris to my estate guard house (26mins+), previously (32mins+)

I think this should be the best that i can go already. Till maybe a better opportunity comes.

Oh, did i mentioned that while going in to Singapore last night, i was fucking blocked by 'JPJ' right after passport clearance at JB checkpt? Alright, let me define 'JPJ' 1st. They are people like the LTA of Singapore. And you might think that Malaysia you really can run away with lots of thing with money, but sadly to say, 'JPJ' are what all Malaysians known them as people who don't receive bribe. And yes, i was caught all because of car modding once again. Was caught like twice a week nowadays. Once by TP, the other by 'JPJ'.. But hell, i was so damn bloody lucky that i managed to convince the head of the team last night to accept my bribe. I don't know how i really did it, but eventually i gave it to him and he even told me if next time he sees me going through any blocks, he will let me go. But of course the bribe ytd don't come in the normal small amount laa. Hopefully he does, if not i would not be so lucky and will receive the letter to ask me go check my car, and i will have to remove everything that is against the law before i could sent my car in.

Signing off everyone... Till then, farewell!

07-12-09

Alright, was very tired last night, that's why i felt lazy to blog about anything.. And also not really in the mood too bahx...

First thing i would like to say, i hope you get well soon...

Right, was worn out as i has only slept 3hrs after singing k with my friends on friday night. After that, was busy like most of the time. Saturday went to do the servicing of my car and also rotating of the tires, that has alr taken up almost half of my day. Then only i rmb my friend told me there will be a drift competition which will be happening on Sunday, which was ytd.. And the qualifying stage is on Saturday. So after the servicing of my car, i went down to the venue to join them. As it was raining before the qualifier, my friend over-drift all the time, and ended up his car turning around 360-degree. And i got to say that JB top drifter really does live up to his name, he is by far most the best to be able to drift pass through all points smoothly, and with the best speed. I guess he is just daring enough to do it. But still, i can tell there is a few drivers that will be sniffing up to his title too. Hahah!

Like i said, i wanted to go Sg initially, but she told me she doesn't wanna watch movie as she wasn't feeling well, thus i drop the idea of going in and was there all the time to brush up drifting skills. Drifting can sometimes bring away unpleasant emotion and also keeps your mind occupied on dwelling on other things. Because you would need all the concentration to maneuver the steering wheel.

After everything, i went home shower up, then my friend jio-ed me for Mahjong, i agreed to it since i could not sleep and i thgt it was just awhile then someone will be able to take over me as i don't really know how to play well. In the end i was trick as Mr. Ng J.C. did not come, then i got to play all the way till morning. But luckily i lost only alittle. Went breakfast with them and i am off back to the racing ground.

Not much car when we arrive, thus, i tried it out with my car. Conclusion, my car suck at drift, but will be more suitable for circuit race. Hahah! Had my piece of fun at drifting using my friend car, though i cannot be compared to any of the drivers there, but it is really fun man.

Left before the entire race was over as i need to rush to Sg meet someone in woodlands then go to the salon to get my pay. But in the end, it ended up that i did not get my pay as YL was at the office, and she wasn't feeling very well and need to go home 1st....

Sent her home as she is feeling very sick then off i went back to JB.

Left out some parts of my Sunday as i don't feel like bringing it up.

Sayonara!

05-12-09

went k session with the clique again till about 4 this morning. been listening to my mum nag all morning. she goes like blah, blah, blah... into my ears. hahahah!

don't know if i would go out singapore later on, if i do, that would be with a purpose. hopefully that girl will accompany me go watch movie at night. but it seems that i msg her till now still no reply, means the salon is very busy as usual on a Saturday.

might have dinner with some old friends, then hope for her mood to come then can go for a show with her, if not then i lan lan will got to go back home face the wall myself...

don't really know what to post laa, not really in the mood to do so recently. talking craps all the way.

bye!

04-12-09

Been stuck at home the whole day... Feeling so damn bored... Online world is getting boring.. FB is quieting down... What else can i do?

Days w/o you passes so slowly, time seems to stop there.. When will be the day? When huh??... Will there be that one day that i hope for?? Really don't know, but i will still hold on to that hope... Perhaps the sometimes its good to be self deceiving..

03-12-09

Fuck man!!! Today just isn't the day for me.. My old injury is back again. I hurt my fucking damn left wrist again, and the pain is just fuck up! Fuck this fucking hand man! Fuck it!

Feeling vulgar today, so if any of you read this post already not happy, then fuck it, i don't really fuck care either. Just not in the mood today.

Really dwelling into lots of things. Every puzzle just make me think about it and dwell over it. Feeling rather sad and disappointed.

Bye!

02-12-09

I wish i can read ppl minds, then i will know what you're thinking. My confidence has gone down, but i will still try my best, i will give it my best shot to turn things around. Though i am not really sure how i am going to do it, and don't know if i can do it, but i will just throw all i have to try my best... Of course i hope thing will turn out the way i want and the way you 'hope'...

Lots of thinking running through me, lots of feelings and emotions too.

Don't know what else to say here le. Nights ppl.

Love is hard & will always be,
But rmb, there is always somebody out there that will love you faithfully,
That is ME!!!

30-11-09

Finally, ended my interesting weekend. Been sleeping really little due to the travelling in and out of Singapore, and the best part of i met a new cock friend from Marvin's 21st after supperclub on Sat.

Friday evening was at JC's home for his sis pre-wedding buffet, then went into Sg for don't know why, no reason, but still foolishly feeling contented driving back t
o JB after that. Oh ya, we did drove up to Mount Faber and then into Sentosa too. Hahah! Kinda lame, but i enjoyed it. Lol!!(:

Back to JC's house again after that, and tght i could catch some slp, but we ended up playing with the facial thing that his sis bought back. The purpose is to remove the blackheads, but end up we added some fun while doing facial. Hahah! Everyone did laugh their ass off, so its good fun!(:
Then come Saturday morning, Ms. Ng Li Xia, Vsyia will officially be Mrs. Tang... Hahah! Watch them have fun, the groom trying his ways to just get into the bride's room, be it being called buay steady, god, he just want his wife peacefully. Wahahaha!:D

Dinner menu looks good, but sadly to say, i couldn't enjoy the whole dinner, instead, i could only enjoy the 1st dish, which is also one of my fav, the cold dish..(: Reason being, i still need to rush in to Singapore to attend Marvin's 21st Bday at Changi Village. After that went to supperclub with the old colleagues, and man, that night, was lucky that i wasn't KOed again. Hahah!

Went back to chalet after sending them back, and again, i tght i could drop dead straight away thinking that my head is kinda spinning alittle. Who knows i met this NS guy, who is apparently alr super high, brought him to buy his ciggs, and he started with his story telling session to keep everyone who were still not asleep entertained. He tales in NS, his actions and expressions are all 2 words, FUCKING HILAROUS... Everyone just keep laughing none stop, of course that includes me, and he went on and on till about 6:30am. Wasn's isn't feeling tired listening to him. And the best part was, he needs to book in to camp at 8:30 in the morning, but he is still fucking intoxicated at 7am. I asked him how is he gonna book in with such a state, he just told me he will go in and tell his OC, 'lala lili la'. I was like, WTF!!! Hahaha!!!(:

Will be seeing this guy again in Dec at another friends bday again, i will get him drunk once mroe for him to start his nonsense. Hahah!

Sunday was a trip to JB with the loveliest girl in my heart, Jun and Edmund. Went massaging then followed by Nasi Lemak for dinner. Though i sleep super little, but i don't know why with your company, i somehow have that little energy left to keep draining it out. Hahah! We went in abit late le, maybe next time we go in on Sat night or Sun morning laa, then at least can spend more time inside.

Sent them back to Sg le came back JB again to celebrate JC's 2nd sis Bday. I didn't know it untill when i almost reach back JB then they ask me to go straight to the place to wait for them. But i left early in the end as i was really really tired.

Thats about my weekend activities. Till the next post then, goodbye.

27-11-09

Was at Cabana last night for JC's sis Hen's night. First of all, congratulation for being 'Miss' for the next less than 24hrs. Hahah!

A number of ppl were down. Hahah! Especially the main lady wasn't let off. Songs wans't that great for the night, but anyway, its not really that crowded though.

Gonna go over to their house later on for the buffet at their house. Rest well today and be prepared for my full of activities tmr till Sunday! Lol!!!

Nothing much that i wanna report here... Hahah! Lost for words and descriptive recently, so it doesn't make much sense for me to keep posting. Hahah! I'm like blurting nonsense here now...-_-|||

Bye everyone!(:

main culprit of all the actions...

ps: hey stephanie yeo!! hahah! i left the last 2words out in case kena screw by you.(: tag tag tag! hahah! missing you!(:

26-11-09

I am practically sleeping the whole day, and rotting at home the whole of ytd again. Eat, sleep and watch movie in my room again through out. Hahah!(:

But while i was doing all those, my mind is constantly thinking about you!(:

I love you!

Bye! Hahah!

Random post!

when is my tag gonna come from you???

24-11-09

Finally, i've submitted my medical report over to the application side of my new job liao. Gonna start officially soon, don't how it will be though. Hopefully everything will runs well.

Have been on Facebook constantly recently, and posted many lame videos as well. Hahah! Sometimes it has been a form of entertainment for me when i'm lonely.

Feeling tired today cuz sent my grandma to the train station to catch her train early morning back to hometown. I guess her this trip i hasn't been home accompanying her much. Hahah! Even she is starting to nag at me sometimes. Hahah! Now is waiting for my mum return on Friday night.

Nothing much to say about liao. Somethings are not meant to be said here, so my fans / stalkers out there, don't think of knowing somethings! Hahah! i know Mr. Han you're one of my stalker. WTF!!! Hahah!(:

Bye everyone!

love ya always! hahah!(:

23-11-09

Good morning everyone!

Ytd was a totally boring day for me, practically eat, sleep and online abit only. Never put my foot out of my house even once... Hahah! Been so long since i did that!

Don't know why i dreamt of you. Hahah! But you still look so pretty and adorable in my dream. Wahahaha!(:

Ytd you really reach home also don't wanna let me know so that i won't call and you won't waste energy to talk right? -_-|||

Feeling kind of random today, don't know what should i do. Trying to look for some activities, you're not working, hopefully you won't wake up late so that we can meet lo!

Bye ppl!

22-11-09

Just got back from K-session with June, Sam, Mike, Kyle and company. Was forced to drink abit. Though i was really reluctant. Wanted to go club at Cabana initially, but apparently, it was full.

Don't know what to post for this entry, cuz i know i am tired and a little high. Hahah!

I know you still have been reading up here frequently, why you never leave a tag!!! Please do so soon!!!

Bye! Loves!

20-11-09

After talking to you on the phone ytd afternoon then i realised how things has really changed. I will do my best to be what you want. When you're so fierce, and said that you want me to take whatever i do seriously and know how serious i need to be, at that point of time then i really knew that i got to take whatever i do and say to you seriously. Forgive me and let us both put in effort towards it again and see me changing. Time and actions will show you how much you means to me, and i hope you're can really be the last one for me...

I take you seriously, that's why i get frantic when you do all these to me. The fear is running through me, and i don't want the worse to come true. Tell me if i really still can turn things around, tell me if i really still can melt that heart of yours? I hope the answer is yes...

I can only say, i love you!!!

19-11-09

I seriously think there is some misunderstanding somewhere after i read your sms. You might have misunderstood what i meant from your reading. I hope i will be able to explain to you personally, you should understand very well what i want, its nothing, but just you.

Last few days was agonizing, without much sleeps, injured ankle, butt, back and knee. Plus a broken heart that hope to be mended by you.

There are always lots of questions that i wanna ask you, lots of things that i wanna tell you, and lots of things that i hope to share with you. i just need that little moment of chance to do it. Whatever i did, be it to or not to your liking, was honestly just what i foolishly thought that would cheer you up, make you happier. I may not be one that can read you mind well, i may not be sensitive enough to know when you don't wanna be bothered, but all i asked for is just for you to be bubbly and cheerful all the time. Apparently, i guessed i've failed more than anything else...

If i have a time machine, i will turn back the time, and takes steps that i should not have done, but i will still do one thing, which is keep thinking of ways to make you happy...

All that i could do is pray hard, hope for the best that things will take a twist. My promise to this is that i will be the perfect one that you want, Just hope you can see and feel it. Thats how much i love you.

Morning everyone... Bye!

18-11-09

Injured my ankle and knee just now while playing soccer. Started at 1030pm and was in the court all the way till 1230am. My ankle is swollen and it hurt like fuck right now. Knee is only bruises, and my butt and waist still hurts from ytd fall. But i think it was still a great game for me today as it took me off from some of the things that has been running through my mind lately, also been great exercising.

Going for my medical check-up later on, still thinking if i should sleep or straight wait till 630am for me to wake up. But i know i'm feeling tired. Still thinking. Hahah!(:

Sometimes, i feel that i am an idiot. I also don't know why. Hahah! Or maybe for some reason, it make me feel this way. I'm tired, kind of tired feeling this way. Or maybe i'm too stupid, thats why i got this feeling.

Went into Sg this afternoon, thinking i could wait for what i am hoping for to come true, but apparently, it did not. I got to end up going back with my heart feeling very heavy. Hope for the call, but it never happen.

Fuck, thinking of needing to drive with my right leg and walk through the checkpoint just for the check-up makes me feel like chopping off my right leg now... This is the result of irregular exercise. Hahah!

Alright, probably thats all for today folks! Nights!



if you think this will be the best for you, then i got nothing to say. i'm beginning to feel that i am just a fly, buzzing around you, irritates you, making you feel annoyed. i'm just helpless now, not telling me anything is perhaps you don't trust me enough, perhaps you still feel very far apart from me. i don't know, kinda tired.

'I love you' is easily said, but till now, i haven't feel it. or maybe i've lost the feeling of it and i don't know how i should gain it back.

all i can do now is wait, wait & still wait. nothing else. or maybe there will no longer be that day, i will never know. guess only you yourself know.

17-11-09

If i'm the god almighty, then i'll be able to read what happened and be able to know how to deal with it. But i am not. Sometimes, i really wonder, what should i do?

My heart is heavy, but my mind is constantly thinking.

Was with Jin ytd to re-do something on his car, and it was fucking raining the whole of ytd in JB that made everywhere slippery and wet. And FUCK, because of buying something which i tght would be very 'important' for me, i slipped and fell right on my butt at one of the stairs. And CCB, now my butt and waist is like fucking pain! If i know i wasn't even suppose to go in, i wouldn't even needed to buy it already... Arhg!!! WTF!

Ytd there are still other highlights of the night for me, but i decided not to say any others of it.

Bye!

16-11-09

I couldn't get to sleep with you being like that! Tell me something can??

15-11-09

The good thing is, i've gotten the job at the magazine firm, the bad thing is i failed the test that they given me. Lol! But luckily i was still selected anyway.

Went to Supperclub ytd, 1st time experience there was still ok. Just that before being there, was at ZX 21st, and his Dad was like forcing everyone, guys or girls, young or old to drink. He was funny cuz we could tell that he was already high. Hahah! But of course we still entertained him alittle and do his bidding. By the time i was in Sg, my stomach is like growling due to the drinking of beer with an empty stomach... But of cuz, there's nothing for me to vomit laa. Hahah!
But still i ended up being home with and growling empty stomach for the night.):

Felt like watching movie these few days. Like there's a couple of movies that i've missed, especially 'This is it', from MJ...): Been anticipating for the show, but ended up missing it. Argh!!!

Anyway, just got to wait for more shows to come out then...

Thats about it for this short little post here. Bye!!

Still alittle confused, but i guess we might also be happy with such confusion for the time being, till of course the day when you say it, then we'll be the happiest in the world! Hahah!(:

13-11-09(Friday)

Friday the 13th today, hope everyone does well today..

Lets hope i pass my test in the new company today. Oh ya, btw ppl, i'm no longer working in the salon, my fate of whether i am able to work in the magazine company will depend on my test today. Hahah!

Attended Don's & Vanessa's wedding last night, and it certainly wan a entertaining and special one. Congratulation to you both!!(:

Again, don't know why many things is running through my mind, and i don't know how to explain it. Nevermind then.

You told me you're very tired, and end up seeing you on FB when i got home, talked to you don't wanna reply me hor! Good!!...

09-11-09

Its me who dwell too much into it ytd. It wasn't my fault, just i'm really too suay to call you at that point of time. Hahah! Hopefully Wednesday you will still come out with me. Then we can probably go around JB.(:

Went to fetch Jun last night at the Checkpoint. Brought her for dinner then i actually felt like going to meet my friend to watch the crucial clash between Chelsea and Man U. But she insist that i must join them for 'K' session.): After singing, i still got to go to my friend place for Mahjong-ing, but in the end when i reach, i naturally fell asleep on his bed all the way till this morning. Hahah!

Though i want Man U to win this year Champ again, but i am kinda happy for Chelsea as it was JT who scored! Hahah! He is one of the best captain that i actually love!! Whoohoo!!!(:

Shall come back again to post tonight. Bye!

08-11-09

Whats going on??? I am just trying to ask you if you wanna come in on Wednesday... And now i don't even know what did i done wrong again... Is it really so difficult to actually want your time? You could have easily just tell me how much you don't want us to meet laa. Initially i still got some other things need to ask you, but you just kap my phone just like that, and off your phone.

Sometimes i really think i else can i do, but it seems like there is nothing.. Nvm!

Anyway, ppl, i am no longer working for my 'former' company, i will probably be starting work on coming Thursday with an advertising magazine company. But still got to go through training 1st.

Hopefully my life will be better there, and pay will be much higher. Hahah! Rotting at home for the time being. Taking it as a longer holiday bahx! Hahah!

Was suppose to go back Penang to attend my god-grandma funeral, but due to some unforeseen circumstances, i decided not to go back. And thus, left with my mum and sis back there. See them on Monday. Hahah!

Tata!(:


Have been wanting to meet you, but it seems that you kept avoiding. If you don't wanna meet, seriously, just tell me directly that you don't want me to bug you. Please!

06-11-09

For you're the one i want. I will not fall so easily with such set-back. I will strive to survive, and i hope i can share your burden too.

Don't know what else i can say, but i just hope you see the above.

Nights!

04-11-09

Hasn't been able to catch my precious sleep that i've lost for so long yet again. Thinking that i would be able to get it ytd, but ended up spending my night and morning off at JC house mahjong-ing. his 3rd sis was back from China, thus we had very long chats throughout. Laughters and fun across the table.(:

Just sent CM down to town for work. Feeling rather tired, but i realised i don't really have much time left as i still need to sent my car to the workshop again to do some other stuffs.

And god, i should be back at work tmr, but now, ended up my god-grandma passed away, so we got to rush back to Penang on Friday. Probably be back on Sunday.

Finally we managed to chat on the phone after so long! I really hope in future you could just tell me anything directly, for you, i can do anything to suits your way to the best i could. Since this is what you want us to be for now, i'm really fine with it. Lets let our feelings take its natural course. Trust me, my love for you can really sustain to when you're ready, really hope everything will go according to what i think by end of next year. But most importantly, i hope your love and feelings for me will be strong enough to sustain till then. I hope you could be that determine as well. In the meanwhile, i will not bother you about anything like this as well. Just hope you can be happy just with my occassion companionship. Treat me the way you did before everything happened minus of those that we agreed on the phone.(: Hahah!

It really takes me much thinking then i came to the decision of doing what i did last night, and yes, i really breaks my heart alot alot!!! But its over now, stay focus with other things now.

Don't know how much time left i have to do what i need to, but i will just try my best!(:

Update again, gonna nap and get myself out soon. Bye!

03-11-09

Happy Birthday to all my friends who are celebrating their birthday today. Have 5 friends that share the same birthday.

JC and Ivy was discharged ytd, and is since recuperating at their own home. Was with JC the whole night tgth with CM. And was forced to accompany them play mahjong till early morning. Was really really tired as i still hasn't gotten baack my normal healthy sleep every since like dunno when, especially these few days after the night when they got into accident. I can feel my health and body is tearing apart, but i just can't get myself to a peaceful undisturb sleep...

Just extended my leave by 1 day, hopefully i could rest with this 1day. Gonna be another busy day for me needing to bring my car to the workshop again and send my dogs for grooming, followed by meeting an old friend for some catch up.

Thus, i should get myself running to keep myself on time. Catch up soon!

Bye!


Coming to this decision is tough, holding on to this decision in order for you to be contented is even tougher. But that is what you want, thus, i will be determine to keep to the decision made!
Life is really unpredictable, one moment it could be laughter and joy, the next it could be sadness filled with tears!

02-11-09

Couldn't sleep well yet again. Was waiting for her to call, but in the end, is still guessed it right, she did not, and didn't even SMS me what so ever. Perhaps you've alr find me irritating and being a nuisance in your life. Perhaps you've alr have the 'fan gan' feeling towards me, or perhaps you've alr have feelings for someone else and not me.

Since you want it this way, then so be it. You've won the game, i give up. But i will still know what my heart wants.

Today will be another travelling day for me. Need to go get my car done by today so that i can bring it for spray painting tmr, need to meet another fren to pick him up from checkpoint to bring him to the hospital for visiting, then followed by meeting Jin to go mod his car.

Keeping myself busy till Wed, or should i just take 1 more day of leave???

01-11-09

Happy Birthday to mummy!! Celebrated mum's birthday today.

Why is it that whenever i really needed someone to talk to, no one will be there? Or rather you wouldn't be there?

So much has happened in withing a mere 1 day. Or should i say just few hours. And i have not even fall asleep in the end since i don't really know when.

Was suppose to be a early birthday celebration for Yokie and Kelvin last night at Cabana, but ended up with many sudden twist of events that has partially spoilt the night out.

Starting with a guy who is trying to crate trouble with our group, and i ended up dragging a king kong size man out, i really feel so much like starting to throw punches on him when he trip and fell while i dragged him, but the bouncer was just right beside me.

Then followed by Chet Meng trying to create trouble in a drunken state. Wanting to find fault with our own group of ppl, and there after even shouted at me, and i felt so much like beating him up. But i know i won't laa. Hahah!

And last and the most serious, Jiann chen and Ivy got into an accident right after our supper. Whole car was wrecked, 3 out of 4 of them inside were injured. Jiann Chen and Ivy needs stitches for some of their wounds, and another guy injured his right elbow. Initially was diagnose as only mild fractured, but after that when he got refered back to Singapore, the doctor say it not very possible its a fractured, but instead it could be one of the vains burst and might have blood clog. Just visited them back from the hospital, super shag as i was like travelling around none stop and companying thm in the hospital. Even got to send the other 2 all the way to Singapore hospital in the morning. I am like still awake since the accident, spending only my travelling time in between taking naps, and while in hospital. And today, we've realise that Malaysian police and hospital staff don't have sense of urgency! Even in a private hospital, the same thing is happening. They just simply do things their own sweet time. The accident scene was right infront of the police HQ, but none of the police came out to help, only one that walked out slowly, but he was like watching show instead of helping. Fuck all those malaysian malays authorities!!! _|_

I'm just so tired now, don't know what time only you'll call me back. Guess i won't have the energy to wait till you call. Destiny has alr brought this to us, and i guess there is really nth else i could do.

Goodnight everyone!

30-10-09

I'm totally sadden, by the way I'm being treated. I don't know if you're still reading what i've said over here. Sometimes these are those things that i really don't know how to phrase it in my mouth to tell it to you. Today has really dashed my slimmest hope off. You've really totally changed the way you treat me, i rmb you saying that you'll nvr be harsh on anyone, but i guess this wasn't suppose to be. Perhaps i am really to fucked up that gave you every reason to do this to me.

I really don't know what more can i do le. I am going crazy soon. Can i just don't want this kind of treatment? I know i am really going crazy le. Can't i even have a good memories up till probably mid of next year? Though i really hope we can be tgth for long, maybe forever. But now the case seems to be twisting away from what everything seems to be initially.

I'm just speechless!!!


I just know i am FUCKED!!!

28-10-09

I really have so much that i wanna tell you. Quite a number of things happened these few days, i just hope you were there to share with me. But i guess fate has taken you away.

Going back to Penang later on, will probably be back later. Lets pray that i will be back safe and sound.

And i hope you will have time for me on Friday evening. But i am not holding high hopes about it.

Goodbye everyone!


*If i die & go to heaven, i'll put your name on a golden star, so that all the angels can see how much you mean to me.
I love you now, and always will!

25-10-09

I have so much to say and so much to tell, but i just don't think i should say it over here.

Been rather tired out past few days. Did not sleep much. And don't know whats wrong with me that keep making me so thirsty all the time. Been drinking lots of water. Alright, maybe i know whats wrong with myself.

Got into a race with this Honda Jazz just now along BKE, and man, he wasn't bad at all i should say. I was behind him all the way for like almost 3km then only i managed to overtake him in a really daring way. If not i probably would have stayed behind him all the way i guess.

Still can't sleep right now, gonna try my best to. But i just wish to talk to you on the phone, but i think you've fallen asleep yet again. Nights!

Nights ppl, bye!

23-10-09

How long more time will i get from the god?? Will i still have all the time to wait? I just hope i have more time to share with you, cherish all the moment that we have tgth.

I just pray hard for everything to change.

I love you! And i know i do deeply!

21-10-09

I know its gonna be a sleepless night for me again tonight. My mind just keep thinking, and many things seems to be running through my mind. Yes, though i know why, but i just can't stop it from thinking, and i don't know what exactly its on, just think, think, think of many things.

I just got this feeling that you really holds back on something that you did not tell me, but i couldn't force it out your mouth as i know you won't say it. I just hope you can trust and have faith in me to open up to me. I don't know if i ever will get it. Anyway, wanted to meet you today, but ended up, sigh!! Also don't know why you'll end up promising to meet others when we're alr suppose to meet. Seems like what i might be thinking could be right.

Argh!!! Why the F*** am i whinning here??? Just waiting for you to reach home and call me. I wonder if you would, if not, means i got another thing right le. Hopefully its not like that!!!

Bye!

19-10-09

Warning!!!
What i am going to post soon might make you hopping mad, or it may make you laugh like mad too!
Muahahahhaha!(:

Someone asked me to give her morning call at about 11plus.

SO....... My day was broken into 2 'wonderful' segments......

(18-10-09)
Started my day ytd by fetching Chet Meng as he got to go work at Gain City, AMK. But before sending him straight there, i ask him to accompany me to get my new specs done as my current one is not gonna last long anymore. Selected the one i find most suitable for me, and ya, i spent quite alot on it as the itchy me wanted to get myself the transition lense. Hahah!(:

After that we headed to Gain City and i decided to go have a look at their GPS device selling price since i still have sometime before its 11am. After that, i did a trial on the device that i spent slightly below 200bucks for to lead me to the place that my sweaty segment begins. Hahah!

I reached my destination, and right, its about 12plus in the afternoon, and did i forget to mention i alr started giving 'you' morning call, but you seems to have fainted with your h/p by your side! Hahah!:P And i continued calling 'you' off and on just below your house, but still to no avail! I was tired, thus i decided to sleep in my car, but without my engine running. And god! It was definitely agonising with the weather, plus the hottest Sun at 12-1pm. Totally awake and gave up on calling you at about 2plus. Went all the way back to Admarilty to meet Ivan and god, he also slept till about 2:30pm, why is everyone in such a sleeping mood ytd but not me??-_-|||

And right, finally my 1st segment ytd ended with you telling me you've woke up while i was with Ivan halfway through our don't lunch or tea... Cuz i told him lets meet for tea, but he ended up eating alot, and me eating some too.

The next segment begins with (like i said), you trying to be funny is it???(rings a bell in you?) Hahah!(:
One moment she told me still wanna go JB, the next tell me but go in do what? Then followed by telling me she cab down to Woodlands, the next moment not coming again. Alright, but i gotta say in the end, the decision is for me to pick her up, then meet another sleeper to acc her buy things. We headed to Zion Hawker for 'dinner' 1st, followed by the decision to also go catch a movie later in the night. Went 'The Cathay' to watch "Funny People". And right, i gotta say its a typical no story line, but, lame with super funny jokes in it if you can catch them. Rated M18 for its dirty humour and its full of nuts jokes! Went Bukit Timah for supper, and met Yusiang up. And so, my day ended with, yes, sending her home.

I really wonder why did i not hop mad at you when i know i am really mad at the point of time, but after you told me you're awake, my anger just sank down somehow, when you hop into my car, the anger was just totally wiped off... Why ah?? Perhaps if i am "R", i wouldn't be talking to you for the say next 1week?? Hahah!! You know what i meant by saying "R" right?(:

(19-10-09)
Today is more of a boring day. Woke up relatively early as usual, went out to meet a friend for lunch and ran some errands and do what i am suppose to do today. Intended to go in Sg earlier in the afternoon, but felt tired, so went back home to wait for you to wake up again. Watch a show in my room while waiting, but in the end i still decided not to go Sg anymore and only you know why! Hahah!(: Anyway, i fell asleep all the way till almost 8. So i went out took dinner as a loner and came back facing my lappy. Like what 'George Simmons' said, i have lots of friends on the internet, so when people ask me what will i be doing tonight, i would say: 'I will be home sitting infront of my computer.'

Thats about it for this entry i guess! Did i miss out on anything?? If not, then, BYE!!!(:



ps: waiting for you to text me, hopefully its a call, so that i can hear your voice!(:

17-10-09

Done with the SAF Officer's Wives Club Annual Tea today. Its kind of interesting and definitely the best experience i gotten so far, not in the aspect of the coordinating, but in the aspect of the people i met, i mingled and socialized with. I was invited as their guest on their only VIP table, sitting beside their ex-club presidents and current president. They are all in their fifties and sixties, its indeed a challenge for me to actually bring out common sharing topics with them, but still, i tried my best to actually hold conversations with them and get to know them. Also i met one of the minister's wife, if i'm not wrong. Hahah! But i guess i certainly has made an strong impact on the wives club as i am the only man invited to join in the tea session, and also done something which i am sure put up a good image of kimrobinson. Hopefully i will be able to attract the minister's wife into our salon to try our service. Probably that will be the last most succesful thing i am able to do bahx!(:

Don't know if we're still gonna go batam tmr, nevertheless, i'm sure we will still have other plans lined up!

Anyway, i don't know why today i suddenly feel very tired again, and i guess it slightly affected my mood alittle. Sorry ya!

Don't know what else to write for now. Thats it folk!

Bye!

15-10-09

How i wish you're by my side right now, but i know for some reason , it is impossible!

I'm sick, very very sick again. Was running a fever early in the morning, but still got to report for work as there are some urgent things for me to clear. Got it cleared very quickly then left.

When i went to the doctor, he said i alr got no fever, so he don't know gave me what medication. Went home to get a good sleep, but my fever came back again while i was sleeping. I felt as if my sould couldn't decide where is me real body as i could feel there were 4-5 bodies around me. My whole mind is in a daze, but when you sms, i know it was you, thats why my mind only told me to call you back at that time. I'm glad i gave you that phone call too anyway. Hahah!

Vomit twice alr, hopefully i'm alright by tmr morning.

*pray*

Tata!



ps: actually there is something in my heart that i feel like asking you, and i really hope to get a honest answer from you. Can i?

14-10-09

I got some feelings! Don't know if i felt it correctly, hope you can enlighten me! Can you??

12-10-09

I don't know what is really stopping you, but i just want to let you know, my mind is made and my heart has decided. The only thing i'm hoping for now is for us to leave by next year, even if its only 2 of us, i hope you also will leave.

Just have faith and confident in me. I won't ask pressurize you anymore, and i will learn more about you to understand you even deeper. But i still do hope for your pampering and for me to pamper you back! Hahah!(:

Loves!

11-10-09

I really just need the time! Can i have it? From what you told me today, it really woke me up and i don't know why i suddenly have the thinking that i'm a goner. It made me think back of the past few weeks, and made me realised that yeah, i really did not try to understand you. Instead, you're the one who has been trying hard to understand me and accommodate me. I am very blur when it comes to catching the special feelings in a r/s, i hope you could tell me more about how you feel, but i will also try my very best to learn and catch your feelings myself too.

You said i'm pressurizing you, but seriously, i am not. Cuz i told you before that i'm alr prepared to face all those whom we need to face tgth. I am sure we can face the music tgth...(: I just need you to have faith in me. Come to think of it, yes, i admit i have been asking too much. So from now, i will not do that anymore. You call the shot, and i do the bidding. (but can i call the shot sometimes too??) Hahah!(:

Both cars has problems now, and it will really cost me lots of time and money this time round.): Guess i really need more sleep recently, if not more accidents are coming up... Which of course i don't want cuz i still have a long way to go with my special someone(you)..;P

Gonna have some slp now. Excited on the trip to batam with you. Promise to bring you to SOTS in time to come.(:

Goodnights!




ps: i just want to let you know that you means alot to me, and i hope i will be the one to hold you hand from now till forever! Loves!!

08-10-09

Have been dwelling into a sentence since last night. And really been thinking in every possible way in order to minimise the misinterpreting and misunderstanding of it.

I saw your msn nick, i hope i did not guess wrongly, and if my guess is right, is it for me to see so that i can react? And of course i hope its for me to see laa. But you knew my chinese SUCKS!! And damn, i really spent loads of time just to find out what exactly the few words means and when put tgth, what will it turn out to be. But for your sake, its really worth the effort to find out..

From what i understand from there, it shows that the only thing i could do now is to give all of what i have and can to gamble on a hand. And of course, i will do that and give my best shot to make it a very good gamble! So you shall just see k? Even if i really lose on that hand, i will still try again and again. But of course who will wanna bet on losing, but just be prepared to face losing though.

Had a great evening tonight though my evening last night was really bad. You brought me to experience something i never went before, and man! Its really cool! Shall we go there again soon, just 2 of us again? Hahah!(:

Thats for tonight! I guess finally i could have a goodnight slp tonight le.(:

Nights!

07-10-09

Couldn't put myself to slp yet again. Why am i also so insensitive to be able to spot little little things that i have been missing out?? Am i really that stupid? FUCK!!! I guess perhaps i've been missing out on lots of opportunities and chances. Am i still too late? I am really not sure, but i will keep trying and trying and trying!

I really have been thinking so much today. Been driving crazily around both jb and sg today as none of my friends is able to accompany me in the afternoon, and i was really bored to the core!!! Driving is my interest, and it can make me feel occupied when i'm down.

I am sad to say this if you are one of those who has made the sacrifice to accompany for tea tonight, but tgth with you all, it really did not cheer me up much, and i kinda regretted drinking the tea as i miss out yet another greatest opportunity to be able to hear her voice. Perhaps i was really way too insensitive to be able to make the right choice. But one thing i am sure of, i have made the right choice to choose her, and even till now, wait for her to return.

Really don't know what else to say le. Still lots of things running through my mind right now that made me even more awake. When will all these end? Will be the day you return babe!

Goodnight, and i love you!(:

06-10-09

My heart is bleeding and crying at the same time! But i know i need to stay strong in order to be able to prove to you and bring you back to my side. I'm sorry for everything, all those we had is so short lived, i just hope i had more time to show you what i can do for you. I hope you can still believe in me that i really can improve and change for the better. I just need the chance that wasn't presented to me. I will keep wait till the day that my chance is back, and i know from then on, i will nvr disappoint you ever again. I wanna be the one to be able to make you laugh and cry, but with the tears of joy!

You've have made me know that i have fallen deeply for you, and how much you means to me now. You're now the 2nd girl that gave me such a feeling, and i really don't feel good about it. I now you told me to change 1st before you see anymore chances in us, but i really don't wish for that as i hope we can be close so that you will really see the changes that i can do for the sake of the word 'love' that i have for you.

Guys, cherish all the lovely girlf that you all have now, don't regret it when you made a mistake and lose everything. How i wish i can turn back time, just turn back 2days earlier and restart everything. But i know its impossible.

Goodbye!

05-10-09

I really can't slp well the whole night despite being very very tired. Hasn't been slping much, but what has happen these 2 days made me think alot, and esp last night. I really wish i could pour my heart out to let you know how i think, but will i ever get the chance to do it again?? I hope i can. Please!

03-10-09

Sorry baby to have spoilt your night just hours before. Only we know what happened, so don't elaborate so much. But i promise from now on, i will not make things halfway like what you said earlier. I unknowingly made you unhappy, but that is the process that i will need to go through in order to get to know you better. I learn about you better from my mistakes, but i will keep doing better with all my mistake. Hope i will be better for you.

Hi ppl, been tired recently again. But i enjoy every moment of my life now that with someone whom i love.(: Anyway, i just got home like not long, and my back is aching in pain till i could not fall asleep. Argh!!! One moment is my shoulder, the other moment become my back. Really can't stand the pain of my back!! Hopefully i can fall asleep soon and wake up feeling good.

Kim has arrive in sg, and it will be a busy day later from morning till night. Hopefully i will be able to pull through the day if my back is still aching. *pray*

Nth much to post about anymore, will update again ya!(:

Bye, nights!

28-09-09

Couldn't push myself to sleep as i know my heart is heavy, so i decided to post down my feelings right now, but not elaborating. Sorry!!

Came back happily from a memorable Genting trip. Really hope there will be many other such trips with you. But i know probably there won't be much of it as the sudden feeling of darkness filled my vision of our future. Before this, i saw a bright light shining towards our future, but now, it seems like its fading, and i know the reason why. I hope you know it too.

Anyway, i don't wish to elaborate too much for others to know.

Bye my friends!

Why must there be so much obstacles to stop two person
who obviously has feelings for each other from being together?
Why must god make love unfair?
Why must everything be a cycle?
Why???

23-09-09

Feeling rather confused, guilty, pleased, and happy today. Its really a mixture of lots of different feelings. Shall elaborate some and not do so for the other some.

Confused with somethings that i felt is very very important for me, my life and my future. I hope to sort it out soon, and i really hope so.

Guilty and pleased comes tgth today. 4 months ago, i board this cab back home late at night, few secs aft he drove off, he said he needs to visit the loo, so he stop and went to a petrol kiosk. I saw him accidentally kick onto a bolt and nut that is left there after the lamp post was removed. Imagine its very painful, but he still limp his way back and fetch me all the way home. Throughout the journey, i knew he was really in pain, but i tght he will get well soon perhaps after a little rest. But that wasn't the case to be. Fate brought us back tgth again today as after so many days of not taking cab, i decide to cab home again today. And i regconise him the moment i saw him standing beside his cab, so i decided to board his cab instead. I asked him if he still rmb my place as he fetch me back b4, he don't exactly rmb, thus i reminded him by saying his kick on the bolt incident. And instantly it brought him back his memory of me. He continue on by telling me that after he alighted me that night, he was abmitted into the hospital and stayed there for almost 4months. I was like OMG!!! It immediatly made me feel guilty and sad, i know it has nth to do with me, but i just feel kind of guilty especially when he is alr an old man. He broke his heel bones and also broke 3 of his nerves. Right now he is still using a walking stick, but still needs to drive as they need to support themselve. The guilt feeling just haunt me up till now, and i don't know why. But i feel a little at ease after paying him RM100 for a RM18 ride, and i got his number so that if i'm in town nxt time and he is also able to fetch me, thn i will let him earn more. I'd rather oay him more so that he don't have to drive for longer hours. god bless him and hope he recover fully soon.

And lastly, i'm happy cuz finally i'm on leave again. And going Genting again. But of course the happiest thing is the companion from someone who really means alot to me. Thats the most important!!!(: I hope it will be 1st of many enjoyable trips with this special someone. *Pray!!*

Okay, gonna have some rest now and wake up early tmr to repair my car.

Tata!

18-09-09

Ytd was a very horrendous day for me. Don't wish to elaborate more as its a long story. But luckily 'korloff' event was smooth.

Am very tired today. Totally shagged off! Hoping today to end early so that i can go home to have a good rest and prepare myself to go malacca tmr evening. Still got to go my friend shop opening for ribbon cutting ceremony...(:

Felt quite light hearted perhaps cause i've finally made clear of my heart and made clear of how i felt to you. Hahah! You know its you laa.(:

Suddenly tght this songs really suits me dedicating to you right now. Hahah!

"Take me back into the arms i love

Need me like you did before

Touch me once again

And remember when there was no one but you i wanted more

Don't go you know you'll break my heart

She won't love you, like i will

I'm the one who'll stay

When she walks away

And you know i'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you

Here inside my heart

I'm the one who wants to love you more

You will see i can give you everything you need

Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew

Hold me so you can't let go

Just believe in me

I will make you see

All the things that your heart need to know"

The words in reds are meant for you, and the 2 'she' in green is suppose to be changed to 'he'. You know who you are, and i know you'll be able to read this post here. Hahah!(:

Bye ppl! Bye to you!(:

15-09-09

Hasn't really been into blogging recently. Just don't have the mental and physical energy to do it.

Dior show is coming up in 3days, and still there is kind of much preparation for it. Hope everything goes well.

Went for a photo shoot near Mount Batten Road ytd morning. Its really a very well decorated house, and its huge! Photo shoot was quite a fast one, and had our share of fun and laughter there with Sam and Marcus. New friend made, Angelina Tan, our future lawyer from UK. Hahah! Way to go man!(:

Heard Sam and Marcus are on sick leave today as both of them are having diarrhea. Hope they are fine, but i guess it must be they are not used to the food we've taken ytd bahx. Cuz if its food poisoning, i think I'm sure i will be like them as well, but till now i am still perfectly fine! Or perhaps lucky me?? Hahah!(:

Alright, shall post to here today as i still have work to do and need to bring my car out for some mod work again.

Tata!!(:

ps: if again you're reading this, rmb this, life is unpredictable, you'll nvr know when you fall for someone and when someone fall for you.(:

06-09-09

Okay, not in the mood to blog most of the time recently, but i just felt like doing so tonight as i realize this place is still not deserted by others. So ppl, can update yourself here about me ya...(:

Work has been really mentally tedious and challenging recently, with much internal politics going on and many things that is against me. Yes, and i am someone who don't like to bring all these kind of things to anyone above me, thats me. So now i finally feel that there is really nothing much for me to stay in this job, or rather this company. Lots and lots of events and shows coordination coming up recently. Biggest event will probably be tmr, Shanghai Tang's International Polo Club and Christian Dior launch. But of course there are still a few others. If ppl, you think contacting all these ppl and emailing all these companies are easy, feel free to take over my position. THANKS!!

Especially on this date (05-09-09), i feel i am rather suay! So much things have happened, and god, i even met the pettiest hooligan in my life. Come one, nobody has any rights to control anyone live, unless the other party is willing to let you do so.

My little poor car was knock by someone last Sunday. He reversed his car w/o even checking his rear and blind spot. And there goes my black beauty!!!

Enough of all these, feeling tired now, got to rest early to wake up early morning tmr to take part in the 'Yellow Ribbon Prison Run'. Hopefully i can complete the run ya. Hahah!

Alright, i'm wondering if you are reading this entry, if you are, then this is important to you!!
I will be your guardian angel from now & till forever! Cuz you know why! Hahah!!!(:

Nights everyone!

22-08-09

Went to Harper's Bazaar photo shoot at Mount Sophia, Old School this ytd afternoon. Stylists were Jennie and Martin. Was pretty fun working with the people there. Enjoyed it, hope to work with them more in future.

Later today will be the 1st time in this week for me to work ing the salon, hopefully i can catch up. Hahah! And i heard the proposed system of mine is rejected, gonna find out more today at work.

Some pics i took at the photo shoot today.

Nights!

19-08-09

Was in the head office located at Circular office recently. And was informed today to expect another big adjustment in the office again. Will open up more windows for me i hope, but it might also be a bad thing too. Can't really reveal too much at the moment as nothing is confirmed at the moment. But come Friday, i will be going to another hair event with Jennie and Martin.

Gonna stay in office most of the time from now i guess. I hope i will not be too bored. Oh, and is there anyone who come to know of ppl who is looking for a job? Guy or lady also alright, as long as good looking and presentable. Please contact me or pass my number to them. Thanks so much. Need someone to replace my post in the salon as customer service. Pays well after confirmation. But i won't reveal it here.(:

After so long, there are still some*thing* that i misses greatly. I hope i don't have to miss it for long, but i guess it will take a really long time.

Will be posting again soon. Got to wait till my other offday for me to take clear pics of my black baby in daylight. Hahah!(:

Cheers! Nights!

18-08-09

Finally, i'm back at here once again after a long long break! Has been really shagged out by work every single night, even during my off days, my day will be even busier with all the driving up and down to car workshops and all to do little little parts of my precious black baby! Hahah!

Have really spent quite abit of money on my car in less than 3months now alr. Getting satisfied with it now. There's really much to mod about for cars, you'll never finish doing it. Just got to be satisfied with it. Will post my little black baby pics here soon. I will post some that is before anything was done, and some on the end result of my creation! Hahah!(:

I actually have so much to tell, but it will be a long long story if i post it here. And perhaps some i wouldn't want it to be read here too.(: Will tell some of the closer ones, and perhaps if anyone interested can buy me a coffee and talk over it.(: Hee!!

Had ended the 'cle de peau' event last week, its fun, and great experience. Coming up is 'Agnes B' event, will be very looking forward for it.

Hope everyone that is reading here is having fun out there and enjoying life so far!(: Life is an enjoyment, we should enjoy it to the fullest!!

Take car ppl, i will post the pics real soon. Once i'm free though!

Bye!

06-08-09

This blog is so dead suddenly. I know, thats because i am not here to post any interesting entries, so no one is here. Hahah! Thats because recently, really too many things has happened, and lots of work thing piling up that made me lazy to think more to post here each night. And i just gotten back from Genting and KL trip. But still couldn't get time to post anything.

End here!

Wait till i am prepared to make a come back. Thanks!

Nights!

25-07-09

Hahahah!! Been so many many days since i last came here to post. Been really really busy with lots of stuff, and its been tiring me out every night when i get home. Even on my off days, i would still be busy with my new car. I didn't even take any pics of it before i done anything to it. Now, i've alr change the rims, tinted and headlights. Tmr morning will be other things too. And probably next week will be the bodykit alr. Will try to take some pics of it in broad daylight before anything is done to it.

So many things has happened within these few days. Many things change in the company and also some bad things that happened to my fren car. Will post the pics later on once i load it into my lappy.

Gonna slp now as i am very tired aft work. Finally its off day again tmr, and i am going to be busy with my car again!

Nights!

16-07-09

Okay, i'm not really posting anything much recently. Not because nothing muh has happened, but rather too much has happened that wear me out, plus the virus that has caught up with me that has made me even more mood-less.

Cle de Peau event ended today. It was really a fantastic event and there will be another exact one in August with them. Really learn lots of things and also met many new nice ppl.(: Nice job everyone!

Alright. I will slowly list down everything that happened from the day i did not post much. For now, i will go to bed early for once!

Till then, see you all!

Nights!!!

14-07-09

Okay, i am sick since ytd morning when i reach work till now, thus explaining why i skipped posting anything ytd. Oh, and i've collected my car ytd, and i should say it gave me abit of a problems now. The big problem is solve, but there are still some other that are still not. Shall do it soon before they don't honour it. Went to made my tinted too today, and i should say now my car will be super cool even under bright hot sun.

You must be wondering why did i still go out when i am not feeling well, that's because when i woke up this morning, i tght i was alr alright, thus i went out with my friend. But never did i expect my body ache to come back after awhile, and my fever came back too.

Anyway, i am too tired to post more details about my car right now, will do it when i recover.

Nights!

12-07-09(2)

Right, this is the 2nd post for this date. But nothing much to say about as i am almost bored to death with the things i've done today. Only went out for awhile to buy some movies then was back home tidying up my room and watching more movies.

Just that when i'm on my way to buy the stuffs, i was so tired out that i fell asleep while waiting for the red light to turn green, and the car behind was like honking me none stop. Hahah! Lucky me for not getting into accident again. Hahah!

Still trying to explore my new phone which i hope i can get the hang of it soon.

Praying hard that i will be able to collect my car on Tuesday morning. And it will be a busy week for me ahead as another 2 hairshow coming up on Wed & Thurs.

Nights!(:

Miss ya loads!

12-07-09(1)

Alright! Had enough of rest alr, fully satisfied with my sleep.(: Let me now recap what have i went through the past 2days. Though its not really that bad, but its still not so smooth.

10/07/09
Work that day was very very mentally tedious. Though i tght it should be a fine day for me as i am going over to MW, but end up going there was really able to slack, instead i got to walk high and low looking for those sticky paper for some work. Before finishing the work there, i alr receive calls that one of the complain client that i was handling need me to get back to him urgently as he will be flying off that same day. And he is certainly one demanding client. Though i should say i did well in handling this client, but my biggest failure is not informing any of my colleagues, thus when he called in, no one was aware. Hahah! And from now onwards, everyone of us is required to write a daily report of what has happened, suggestion of how we should improve, blah blah blah... Unluckily for me, that night has 3 incident that came up. But of course the most significant was my client case. Hahah! So i actually got 3 report that i should be writing that night, being the complain case the longest.

11/07/09
Initially thinking it won't be such a busy day ended up being super busy. I'm like a spiritless body working. Undercharged 2 clients. Best of all, both are quite big amounts. And damn, sometimes when its not good to have a kind heart of helping out, especially during your break time. Just close your eyes off anything and go for your break. Something that i really don't wish to bring it up here in case others is reading. But for this incident, again another long report will be stacking on me!! God damn!!

Its not suppose to be my off today as i have alr off last Sunday, but as there is a change in my grouping, i got another Sunday off for today. Nothing much has happened for today as its just the beginning. Just done with my sit-ups and breakfast. Hahah!(: Gonna do some tidying to my room today. Hope i have something to post about tonight. Thats about it for now!(:

Bye!