30-11-09

Finally, ended my interesting weekend. Been sleeping really little due to the travelling in and out of Singapore, and the best part of i met a new cock friend from Marvin's 21st after supperclub on Sat.

Friday evening was at JC's home for his sis pre-wedding buffet, then went into Sg for don't know why, no reason, but still foolishly feeling contented driving back t
o JB after that. Oh ya, we did drove up to Mount Faber and then into Sentosa too. Hahah! Kinda lame, but i enjoyed it. Lol!!(:

Back to JC's house again after that, and tght i could catch some slp, but we ended up playing with the facial thing that his sis bought back. The purpose is to remove the blackheads, but end up we added some fun while doing facial. Hahah! Everyone did laugh their ass off, so its good fun!(:
Then come Saturday morning, Ms. Ng Li Xia, Vsyia will officially be Mrs. Tang... Hahah! Watch them have fun, the groom trying his ways to just get into the bride's room, be it being called buay steady, god, he just want his wife peacefully. Wahahaha!:D

Dinner menu looks good, but sadly to say, i couldn't enjoy the whole dinner, instead, i could only enjoy the 1st dish, which is also one of my fav, the cold dish..(: Reason being, i still need to rush in to Singapore to attend Marvin's 21st Bday at Changi Village. After that went to supperclub with the old colleagues, and man, that night, was lucky that i wasn't KOed again. Hahah!

Went back to chalet after sending them back, and again, i tght i could drop dead straight away thinking that my head is kinda spinning alittle. Who knows i met this NS guy, who is apparently alr super high, brought him to buy his ciggs, and he started with his story telling session to keep everyone who were still not asleep entertained. He tales in NS, his actions and expressions are all 2 words, FUCKING HILAROUS... Everyone just keep laughing none stop, of course that includes me, and he went on and on till about 6:30am. Wasn's isn't feeling tired listening to him. And the best part was, he needs to book in to camp at 8:30 in the morning, but he is still fucking intoxicated at 7am. I asked him how is he gonna book in with such a state, he just told me he will go in and tell his OC, 'lala lili la'. I was like, WTF!!! Hahaha!!!(:

Will be seeing this guy again in Dec at another friends bday again, i will get him drunk once mroe for him to start his nonsense. Hahah!

Sunday was a trip to JB with the loveliest girl in my heart, Jun and Edmund. Went massaging then followed by Nasi Lemak for dinner. Though i sleep super little, but i don't know why with your company, i somehow have that little energy left to keep draining it out. Hahah! We went in abit late le, maybe next time we go in on Sat night or Sun morning laa, then at least can spend more time inside.

Sent them back to Sg le came back JB again to celebrate JC's 2nd sis Bday. I didn't know it untill when i almost reach back JB then they ask me to go straight to the place to wait for them. But i left early in the end as i was really really tired.

Thats about my weekend activities. Till the next post then, goodbye.

27-11-09

Was at Cabana last night for JC's sis Hen's night. First of all, congratulation for being 'Miss' for the next less than 24hrs. Hahah!

A number of ppl were down. Hahah! Especially the main lady wasn't let off. Songs wans't that great for the night, but anyway, its not really that crowded though.

Gonna go over to their house later on for the buffet at their house. Rest well today and be prepared for my full of activities tmr till Sunday! Lol!!!

Nothing much that i wanna report here... Hahah! Lost for words and descriptive recently, so it doesn't make much sense for me to keep posting. Hahah! I'm like blurting nonsense here now...-_-|||

Bye everyone!(:

main culprit of all the actions...

ps: hey stephanie yeo!! hahah! i left the last 2words out in case kena screw by you.(: tag tag tag! hahah! missing you!(:

26-11-09

I am practically sleeping the whole day, and rotting at home the whole of ytd again. Eat, sleep and watch movie in my room again through out. Hahah!(:

But while i was doing all those, my mind is constantly thinking about you!(:

I love you!

Bye! Hahah!

Random post!

when is my tag gonna come from you???

24-11-09

Finally, i've submitted my medical report over to the application side of my new job liao. Gonna start officially soon, don't how it will be though. Hopefully everything will runs well.

Have been on Facebook constantly recently, and posted many lame videos as well. Hahah! Sometimes it has been a form of entertainment for me when i'm lonely.

Feeling tired today cuz sent my grandma to the train station to catch her train early morning back to hometown. I guess her this trip i hasn't been home accompanying her much. Hahah! Even she is starting to nag at me sometimes. Hahah! Now is waiting for my mum return on Friday night.

Nothing much to say about liao. Somethings are not meant to be said here, so my fans / stalkers out there, don't think of knowing somethings! Hahah! i know Mr. Han you're one of my stalker. WTF!!! Hahah!(:

Bye everyone!

love ya always! hahah!(:

23-11-09

Good morning everyone!

Ytd was a totally boring day for me, practically eat, sleep and online abit only. Never put my foot out of my house even once... Hahah! Been so long since i did that!

Don't know why i dreamt of you. Hahah! But you still look so pretty and adorable in my dream. Wahahaha!(:

Ytd you really reach home also don't wanna let me know so that i won't call and you won't waste energy to talk right? -_-|||

Feeling kind of random today, don't know what should i do. Trying to look for some activities, you're not working, hopefully you won't wake up late so that we can meet lo!

Bye ppl!

22-11-09

Just got back from K-session with June, Sam, Mike, Kyle and company. Was forced to drink abit. Though i was really reluctant. Wanted to go club at Cabana initially, but apparently, it was full.

Don't know what to post for this entry, cuz i know i am tired and a little high. Hahah!

I know you still have been reading up here frequently, why you never leave a tag!!! Please do so soon!!!

Bye! Loves!

20-11-09

After talking to you on the phone ytd afternoon then i realised how things has really changed. I will do my best to be what you want. When you're so fierce, and said that you want me to take whatever i do seriously and know how serious i need to be, at that point of time then i really knew that i got to take whatever i do and say to you seriously. Forgive me and let us both put in effort towards it again and see me changing. Time and actions will show you how much you means to me, and i hope you're can really be the last one for me...

I take you seriously, that's why i get frantic when you do all these to me. The fear is running through me, and i don't want the worse to come true. Tell me if i really still can turn things around, tell me if i really still can melt that heart of yours? I hope the answer is yes...

I can only say, i love you!!!

19-11-09

I seriously think there is some misunderstanding somewhere after i read your sms. You might have misunderstood what i meant from your reading. I hope i will be able to explain to you personally, you should understand very well what i want, its nothing, but just you.

Last few days was agonizing, without much sleeps, injured ankle, butt, back and knee. Plus a broken heart that hope to be mended by you.

There are always lots of questions that i wanna ask you, lots of things that i wanna tell you, and lots of things that i hope to share with you. i just need that little moment of chance to do it. Whatever i did, be it to or not to your liking, was honestly just what i foolishly thought that would cheer you up, make you happier. I may not be one that can read you mind well, i may not be sensitive enough to know when you don't wanna be bothered, but all i asked for is just for you to be bubbly and cheerful all the time. Apparently, i guessed i've failed more than anything else...

If i have a time machine, i will turn back the time, and takes steps that i should not have done, but i will still do one thing, which is keep thinking of ways to make you happy...

All that i could do is pray hard, hope for the best that things will take a twist. My promise to this is that i will be the perfect one that you want, Just hope you can see and feel it. Thats how much i love you.

Morning everyone... Bye!

18-11-09

Injured my ankle and knee just now while playing soccer. Started at 1030pm and was in the court all the way till 1230am. My ankle is swollen and it hurt like fuck right now. Knee is only bruises, and my butt and waist still hurts from ytd fall. But i think it was still a great game for me today as it took me off from some of the things that has been running through my mind lately, also been great exercising.

Going for my medical check-up later on, still thinking if i should sleep or straight wait till 630am for me to wake up. But i know i'm feeling tired. Still thinking. Hahah!(:

Sometimes, i feel that i am an idiot. I also don't know why. Hahah! Or maybe for some reason, it make me feel this way. I'm tired, kind of tired feeling this way. Or maybe i'm too stupid, thats why i got this feeling.

Went into Sg this afternoon, thinking i could wait for what i am hoping for to come true, but apparently, it did not. I got to end up going back with my heart feeling very heavy. Hope for the call, but it never happen.

Fuck, thinking of needing to drive with my right leg and walk through the checkpoint just for the check-up makes me feel like chopping off my right leg now... This is the result of irregular exercise. Hahah!

Alright, probably thats all for today folks! Nights!



if you think this will be the best for you, then i got nothing to say. i'm beginning to feel that i am just a fly, buzzing around you, irritates you, making you feel annoyed. i'm just helpless now, not telling me anything is perhaps you don't trust me enough, perhaps you still feel very far apart from me. i don't know, kinda tired.

'I love you' is easily said, but till now, i haven't feel it. or maybe i've lost the feeling of it and i don't know how i should gain it back.

all i can do now is wait, wait & still wait. nothing else. or maybe there will no longer be that day, i will never know. guess only you yourself know.

17-11-09

If i'm the god almighty, then i'll be able to read what happened and be able to know how to deal with it. But i am not. Sometimes, i really wonder, what should i do?

My heart is heavy, but my mind is constantly thinking.

Was with Jin ytd to re-do something on his car, and it was fucking raining the whole of ytd in JB that made everywhere slippery and wet. And FUCK, because of buying something which i tght would be very 'important' for me, i slipped and fell right on my butt at one of the stairs. And CCB, now my butt and waist is like fucking pain! If i know i wasn't even suppose to go in, i wouldn't even needed to buy it already... Arhg!!! WTF!

Ytd there are still other highlights of the night for me, but i decided not to say any others of it.

Bye!

16-11-09

I couldn't get to sleep with you being like that! Tell me something can??

15-11-09

The good thing is, i've gotten the job at the magazine firm, the bad thing is i failed the test that they given me. Lol! But luckily i was still selected anyway.

Went to Supperclub ytd, 1st time experience there was still ok. Just that before being there, was at ZX 21st, and his Dad was like forcing everyone, guys or girls, young or old to drink. He was funny cuz we could tell that he was already high. Hahah! But of course we still entertained him alittle and do his bidding. By the time i was in Sg, my stomach is like growling due to the drinking of beer with an empty stomach... But of cuz, there's nothing for me to vomit laa. Hahah!
But still i ended up being home with and growling empty stomach for the night.):

Felt like watching movie these few days. Like there's a couple of movies that i've missed, especially 'This is it', from MJ...): Been anticipating for the show, but ended up missing it. Argh!!!

Anyway, just got to wait for more shows to come out then...

Thats about it for this short little post here. Bye!!

Still alittle confused, but i guess we might also be happy with such confusion for the time being, till of course the day when you say it, then we'll be the happiest in the world! Hahah!(:

13-11-09(Friday)

Friday the 13th today, hope everyone does well today..

Lets hope i pass my test in the new company today. Oh ya, btw ppl, i'm no longer working in the salon, my fate of whether i am able to work in the magazine company will depend on my test today. Hahah!

Attended Don's & Vanessa's wedding last night, and it certainly wan a entertaining and special one. Congratulation to you both!!(:

Again, don't know why many things is running through my mind, and i don't know how to explain it. Nevermind then.

You told me you're very tired, and end up seeing you on FB when i got home, talked to you don't wanna reply me hor! Good!!...

09-11-09

Its me who dwell too much into it ytd. It wasn't my fault, just i'm really too suay to call you at that point of time. Hahah! Hopefully Wednesday you will still come out with me. Then we can probably go around JB.(:

Went to fetch Jun last night at the Checkpoint. Brought her for dinner then i actually felt like going to meet my friend to watch the crucial clash between Chelsea and Man U. But she insist that i must join them for 'K' session.): After singing, i still got to go to my friend place for Mahjong-ing, but in the end when i reach, i naturally fell asleep on his bed all the way till this morning. Hahah!

Though i want Man U to win this year Champ again, but i am kinda happy for Chelsea as it was JT who scored! Hahah! He is one of the best captain that i actually love!! Whoohoo!!!(:

Shall come back again to post tonight. Bye!

08-11-09

Whats going on??? I am just trying to ask you if you wanna come in on Wednesday... And now i don't even know what did i done wrong again... Is it really so difficult to actually want your time? You could have easily just tell me how much you don't want us to meet laa. Initially i still got some other things need to ask you, but you just kap my phone just like that, and off your phone.

Sometimes i really think i else can i do, but it seems like there is nothing.. Nvm!

Anyway, ppl, i am no longer working for my 'former' company, i will probably be starting work on coming Thursday with an advertising magazine company. But still got to go through training 1st.

Hopefully my life will be better there, and pay will be much higher. Hahah! Rotting at home for the time being. Taking it as a longer holiday bahx! Hahah!

Was suppose to go back Penang to attend my god-grandma funeral, but due to some unforeseen circumstances, i decided not to go back. And thus, left with my mum and sis back there. See them on Monday. Hahah!

Tata!(:


Have been wanting to meet you, but it seems that you kept avoiding. If you don't wanna meet, seriously, just tell me directly that you don't want me to bug you. Please!

06-11-09

For you're the one i want. I will not fall so easily with such set-back. I will strive to survive, and i hope i can share your burden too.

Don't know what else i can say, but i just hope you see the above.

Nights!

04-11-09

Hasn't been able to catch my precious sleep that i've lost for so long yet again. Thinking that i would be able to get it ytd, but ended up spending my night and morning off at JC house mahjong-ing. his 3rd sis was back from China, thus we had very long chats throughout. Laughters and fun across the table.(:

Just sent CM down to town for work. Feeling rather tired, but i realised i don't really have much time left as i still need to sent my car to the workshop again to do some other stuffs.

And god, i should be back at work tmr, but now, ended up my god-grandma passed away, so we got to rush back to Penang on Friday. Probably be back on Sunday.

Finally we managed to chat on the phone after so long! I really hope in future you could just tell me anything directly, for you, i can do anything to suits your way to the best i could. Since this is what you want us to be for now, i'm really fine with it. Lets let our feelings take its natural course. Trust me, my love for you can really sustain to when you're ready, really hope everything will go according to what i think by end of next year. But most importantly, i hope your love and feelings for me will be strong enough to sustain till then. I hope you could be that determine as well. In the meanwhile, i will not bother you about anything like this as well. Just hope you can be happy just with my occassion companionship. Treat me the way you did before everything happened minus of those that we agreed on the phone.(: Hahah!

It really takes me much thinking then i came to the decision of doing what i did last night, and yes, i really breaks my heart alot alot!!! But its over now, stay focus with other things now.

Don't know how much time left i have to do what i need to, but i will just try my best!(:

Update again, gonna nap and get myself out soon. Bye!

03-11-09

Happy Birthday to all my friends who are celebrating their birthday today. Have 5 friends that share the same birthday.

JC and Ivy was discharged ytd, and is since recuperating at their own home. Was with JC the whole night tgth with CM. And was forced to accompany them play mahjong till early morning. Was really really tired as i still hasn't gotten baack my normal healthy sleep every since like dunno when, especially these few days after the night when they got into accident. I can feel my health and body is tearing apart, but i just can't get myself to a peaceful undisturb sleep...

Just extended my leave by 1 day, hopefully i could rest with this 1day. Gonna be another busy day for me needing to bring my car to the workshop again and send my dogs for grooming, followed by meeting an old friend for some catch up.

Thus, i should get myself running to keep myself on time. Catch up soon!

Bye!


Coming to this decision is tough, holding on to this decision in order for you to be contented is even tougher. But that is what you want, thus, i will be determine to keep to the decision made!
Life is really unpredictable, one moment it could be laughter and joy, the next it could be sadness filled with tears!

02-11-09

Couldn't sleep well yet again. Was waiting for her to call, but in the end, is still guessed it right, she did not, and didn't even SMS me what so ever. Perhaps you've alr find me irritating and being a nuisance in your life. Perhaps you've alr have the 'fan gan' feeling towards me, or perhaps you've alr have feelings for someone else and not me.

Since you want it this way, then so be it. You've won the game, i give up. But i will still know what my heart wants.

Today will be another travelling day for me. Need to go get my car done by today so that i can bring it for spray painting tmr, need to meet another fren to pick him up from checkpoint to bring him to the hospital for visiting, then followed by meeting Jin to go mod his car.

Keeping myself busy till Wed, or should i just take 1 more day of leave???

01-11-09

Happy Birthday to mummy!! Celebrated mum's birthday today.

Why is it that whenever i really needed someone to talk to, no one will be there? Or rather you wouldn't be there?

So much has happened in withing a mere 1 day. Or should i say just few hours. And i have not even fall asleep in the end since i don't really know when.

Was suppose to be a early birthday celebration for Yokie and Kelvin last night at Cabana, but ended up with many sudden twist of events that has partially spoilt the night out.

Starting with a guy who is trying to crate trouble with our group, and i ended up dragging a king kong size man out, i really feel so much like starting to throw punches on him when he trip and fell while i dragged him, but the bouncer was just right beside me.

Then followed by Chet Meng trying to create trouble in a drunken state. Wanting to find fault with our own group of ppl, and there after even shouted at me, and i felt so much like beating him up. But i know i won't laa. Hahah!

And last and the most serious, Jiann chen and Ivy got into an accident right after our supper. Whole car was wrecked, 3 out of 4 of them inside were injured. Jiann Chen and Ivy needs stitches for some of their wounds, and another guy injured his right elbow. Initially was diagnose as only mild fractured, but after that when he got refered back to Singapore, the doctor say it not very possible its a fractured, but instead it could be one of the vains burst and might have blood clog. Just visited them back from the hospital, super shag as i was like travelling around none stop and companying thm in the hospital. Even got to send the other 2 all the way to Singapore hospital in the morning. I am like still awake since the accident, spending only my travelling time in between taking naps, and while in hospital. And today, we've realise that Malaysian police and hospital staff don't have sense of urgency! Even in a private hospital, the same thing is happening. They just simply do things their own sweet time. The accident scene was right infront of the police HQ, but none of the police came out to help, only one that walked out slowly, but he was like watching show instead of helping. Fuck all those malaysian malays authorities!!! _|_

I'm just so tired now, don't know what time only you'll call me back. Guess i won't have the energy to wait till you call. Destiny has alr brought this to us, and i guess there is really nth else i could do.

Goodnight everyone!