28-09-09

Couldn't push myself to sleep as i know my heart is heavy, so i decided to post down my feelings right now, but not elaborating. Sorry!!

Came back happily from a memorable Genting trip. Really hope there will be many other such trips with you. But i know probably there won't be much of it as the sudden feeling of darkness filled my vision of our future. Before this, i saw a bright light shining towards our future, but now, it seems like its fading, and i know the reason why. I hope you know it too.

Anyway, i don't wish to elaborate too much for others to know.

Bye my friends!

Why must there be so much obstacles to stop two person
who obviously has feelings for each other from being together?
Why must god make love unfair?
Why must everything be a cycle?
Why???

23-09-09

Feeling rather confused, guilty, pleased, and happy today. Its really a mixture of lots of different feelings. Shall elaborate some and not do so for the other some.

Confused with somethings that i felt is very very important for me, my life and my future. I hope to sort it out soon, and i really hope so.

Guilty and pleased comes tgth today. 4 months ago, i board this cab back home late at night, few secs aft he drove off, he said he needs to visit the loo, so he stop and went to a petrol kiosk. I saw him accidentally kick onto a bolt and nut that is left there after the lamp post was removed. Imagine its very painful, but he still limp his way back and fetch me all the way home. Throughout the journey, i knew he was really in pain, but i tght he will get well soon perhaps after a little rest. But that wasn't the case to be. Fate brought us back tgth again today as after so many days of not taking cab, i decide to cab home again today. And i regconise him the moment i saw him standing beside his cab, so i decided to board his cab instead. I asked him if he still rmb my place as he fetch me back b4, he don't exactly rmb, thus i reminded him by saying his kick on the bolt incident. And instantly it brought him back his memory of me. He continue on by telling me that after he alighted me that night, he was abmitted into the hospital and stayed there for almost 4months. I was like OMG!!! It immediatly made me feel guilty and sad, i know it has nth to do with me, but i just feel kind of guilty especially when he is alr an old man. He broke his heel bones and also broke 3 of his nerves. Right now he is still using a walking stick, but still needs to drive as they need to support themselve. The guilt feeling just haunt me up till now, and i don't know why. But i feel a little at ease after paying him RM100 for a RM18 ride, and i got his number so that if i'm in town nxt time and he is also able to fetch me, thn i will let him earn more. I'd rather oay him more so that he don't have to drive for longer hours. god bless him and hope he recover fully soon.

And lastly, i'm happy cuz finally i'm on leave again. And going Genting again. But of course the happiest thing is the companion from someone who really means alot to me. Thats the most important!!!(: I hope it will be 1st of many enjoyable trips with this special someone. *Pray!!*

Okay, gonna have some rest now and wake up early tmr to repair my car.

Tata!

18-09-09

Ytd was a very horrendous day for me. Don't wish to elaborate more as its a long story. But luckily 'korloff' event was smooth.

Am very tired today. Totally shagged off! Hoping today to end early so that i can go home to have a good rest and prepare myself to go malacca tmr evening. Still got to go my friend shop opening for ribbon cutting ceremony...(:

Felt quite light hearted perhaps cause i've finally made clear of my heart and made clear of how i felt to you. Hahah! You know its you laa.(:

Suddenly tght this songs really suits me dedicating to you right now. Hahah!

"Take me back into the arms i love

Need me like you did before

Touch me once again

And remember when there was no one but you i wanted more

Don't go you know you'll break my heart

She won't love you, like i will

I'm the one who'll stay

When she walks away

And you know i'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you

Here inside my heart

I'm the one who wants to love you more

You will see i can give you everything you need

Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew

Hold me so you can't let go

Just believe in me

I will make you see

All the things that your heart need to know"

The words in reds are meant for you, and the 2 'she' in green is suppose to be changed to 'he'. You know who you are, and i know you'll be able to read this post here. Hahah!(:

Bye ppl! Bye to you!(:

15-09-09

Hasn't really been into blogging recently. Just don't have the mental and physical energy to do it.

Dior show is coming up in 3days, and still there is kind of much preparation for it. Hope everything goes well.

Went for a photo shoot near Mount Batten Road ytd morning. Its really a very well decorated house, and its huge! Photo shoot was quite a fast one, and had our share of fun and laughter there with Sam and Marcus. New friend made, Angelina Tan, our future lawyer from UK. Hahah! Way to go man!(:

Heard Sam and Marcus are on sick leave today as both of them are having diarrhea. Hope they are fine, but i guess it must be they are not used to the food we've taken ytd bahx. Cuz if its food poisoning, i think I'm sure i will be like them as well, but till now i am still perfectly fine! Or perhaps lucky me?? Hahah!(:

Alright, shall post to here today as i still have work to do and need to bring my car out for some mod work again.

Tata!!(:

ps: if again you're reading this, rmb this, life is unpredictable, you'll nvr know when you fall for someone and when someone fall for you.(:

06-09-09

Okay, not in the mood to blog most of the time recently, but i just felt like doing so tonight as i realize this place is still not deserted by others. So ppl, can update yourself here about me ya...(:

Work has been really mentally tedious and challenging recently, with much internal politics going on and many things that is against me. Yes, and i am someone who don't like to bring all these kind of things to anyone above me, thats me. So now i finally feel that there is really nothing much for me to stay in this job, or rather this company. Lots and lots of events and shows coordination coming up recently. Biggest event will probably be tmr, Shanghai Tang's International Polo Club and Christian Dior launch. But of course there are still a few others. If ppl, you think contacting all these ppl and emailing all these companies are easy, feel free to take over my position. THANKS!!

Especially on this date (05-09-09), i feel i am rather suay! So much things have happened, and god, i even met the pettiest hooligan in my life. Come one, nobody has any rights to control anyone live, unless the other party is willing to let you do so.

My little poor car was knock by someone last Sunday. He reversed his car w/o even checking his rear and blind spot. And there goes my black beauty!!!

Enough of all these, feeling tired now, got to rest early to wake up early morning tmr to take part in the 'Yellow Ribbon Prison Run'. Hopefully i can complete the run ya. Hahah!

Alright, i'm wondering if you are reading this entry, if you are, then this is important to you!!
I will be your guardian angel from now & till forever! Cuz you know why! Hahah!!!(:

Nights everyone!